I'm feeling really peculiar lately. Have been out for almost a month already, yet my life seems to be degenerating. This isn't what i envisioned! This wasn't the plan! I have gone from bad to worst in my own opinion. I feel like i'm wasting too much time, too much energy and too much of everything else doing nothing.
I want to go forward. Far forward. School's pushed back already. But i havent gotten the job i want! So many complications arising from everything its frustrating! Is it that hard to succeed in what you are good at? Why do i always cock up at the crucial moment?
I believe i have the ability to do it, but i need someone who believes in me whole heartedly too. Who is willing to support me without question in everything i do, who can stand by my side silently through all my thick and thin, through every storm. Someone kind, patient. Someone who is an
angel. Right now i do not have the belief or strength in myself. I need a light. A pillar of support.
But maybe i'm looking at a wall of impossibility.
