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Friday, July 16, 2004 these few days i have been quite busy..almost everyday was a full day for me. had stuff on in the morning then had to rush to school and then after that had to go for motorola stuff. at the end of the day im usually so shag i cant even get a erection even if i wanted to. i just want to go home and knock out. these few days dar has asked me out and i had to always say i cant because of the committments and also due to my lethargy. she got irritated. irritated because i was busy and could not spare time for her for a few days. so she goes out with her friends. yesterday i called her before i went to work with motorola. it was a promotion tour of ms for the launch of e398. she told me she was going drinking with her friends. i asked her where and she evasively said town. why wouldnt she tell me exactly where? afraid i would drop in? she said she's going out with her friends because i was too busy. i let that pass and i told her that i had work and we hung up. throughout the whole promotion i got very depressed. but i went through it with a smile on my face for the people. after work i rushed down to town to try and give her a surprise. i called her again and again but she didnt pick up. i send her an sms and she didnt reply. was she still angry? or was she drunk? i imagined her getting ravaged by another guy and i got very worrry and frustrated. why wouldnt she just pick up the call!! i styaed in town and waited for her to call back as i had no idea where to go to find her. i kept calling and i sent another sms. finally after waiting for an hour i went home. i was dead tired and i had work early tomorrow. gritting my teeth i was in a very very bad mood throughout the whole journey back home. when i was home i tried calling her again. this time she picked up. i asked her immediately where she was. she said she was on her way home after clubbing. in someone's car i would say judging for the quiet background. i asked her why she didnt pick up my call. she said that her phone was in her bag which was in the bag deposit. i thought you always carry your phone around with u. never mind. then why did u not return my call after clubbing or send me an sms back? she hasn't had the chance to check her phone. right. whatever. she ended the call by saying maybe we will meet up tomorrow. and then we hung up. i waited and waited for her to call back. if she had seen the sms i sent her about me waiting in town for her she should have at least the decency to call me back and ask me what i was doing waiting in town for. no call came. i send her another message telling her i waited in town for her for an hour. again no call came. seething with anger i tried to sleep. i succeeded after an hour of struggling with myself. will she call me today and ask me about yesterday? i doubt it. whats in her mind now iis prob i deserve this as i did not have the time to accompany her these few days. if i get into an argument with her about this i would probably lose. why? i know in the end i will have to give in. whatever. im very tired. have to go to work already. |
Richel A.K.A Bkoolz tag me 
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03/30/2003 - 04/06/2003 designed by lonelyger |
