seems like the old blog is heating up again. ha..chill yo..it aint dun bug me no more. u could diss me or shit moi for the fuck i care, yo. i aint suffering in no camp no more. im soon to be outtie. if it makes ya happy to abuse me go ahead junkie cause ya simply dun make it yo.

went to the dj quest at phuture yesterday. wasnt a bad competition at all overall..didnt like the crowd though..realli a lotta people..like standing room onli no space to wiggle and jiggle ya know. left at the end of it around 1 cause damm..realli no mood..too tired i think..had a little tiff with karin on the way back to orchard..but worked it out fine though..

she didnt wanna go back so early yo but i was too tired..she was a bit upset after that but god was too busy trying notta fall asleep to coax her..sorrie baby..was realli shagged out would have tried to think of something to do if i was not that tired..realli sorry darlin..

anyway..finally sent the dance song to kar..her bro though..i mean she was not at home so sent it to her bro..hmm thru msn..yo kar..no icq but have msn?? *ponder a bit* hope she like it..dun realli like it myself..but with the limited software and inspiration its one of the best i could do.

gotta go back camp serve dat last confinement. will be back on monday morn. see ya all. shout out to kar. peace out.

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[richel] [7/12/2003 06:00:00 AM]

wahz..two days without internet access was like dying to me sia...worried constantly about my utopia account, my earth account, the chillicrap outing..wah laoz...no can finally check those things out very VERY reliefed...outing is fine..date and venue finalised..still got a couple of stuff to sort out. utopia accounts ok..earth ok...haha...the world didnt collapse..!! horray!!
idiot...*thumps myself on the head*
started the first two days of my confinement yesterday...spent two fucking days cleaning 120 plus rifles..nightmare!! over twenty plus hours stuck in the bloody armskote room cleaning gun after gun..fucking glad its finally over!! one more day of confinement to go before im truly madly deeply home free!! clear all my leave and leave the fucking army and its double headed despicable fuckers behind.

Have you ever been hated or discriminated against? I have, I've been protested and demonstrated against
P icket signs for my wicked rhymes. Look at the times. Sick is the mind of the motha fuckin' kid that's behind
all this commotion. Emotions run deep as ocean's explodin.' Tempers flaring from parents, just blow 'em off and keep goin.'
Not takin 'nothin' from no one, give 'em hell long as I'm breathin.' Keep kickin' ass in the mornin,' an' takin' names in the evening.
Leavem with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth. See, they can trigger me but they never figure me out
Look at me now, I bet ya probably sick of me now. Ain't you mama, I'ma make you look so ridiculous now.

from cleaning out my closet/ eminen

i dun understand why those people have to do this to me..what kinda humanity do they have? cant they leave me in peace? why do i have to live my life under the constant fear and scrutiny of others..esp of others all around me? i cant even trust the people i stay around with for more than a year! people i have gone through so much with backstabbing me when im gonna finish my term as a mofo slave to the country! fuck it if they are not happy about me ording! fuck it if they give a shit about my feelings! but fuck them if they think im gonna stumble and crumble cause fuckers im no quitter. u wanna kill me then u assholes better get a sharper knife. cause i aint giving up my motherfucking life.

shout outta to ya kar. u stood by me.
shout outta to the people who cared enuf to ask about me. to express anger and disbelief at the injustice that has been done to me. respect to ya guys. you know who u are.

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[richel] [7/07/2003 04:45:00 AM]