i dont understand how some people can be a racist.

we are in such an open society now. singapore. where everywhere u turn u see people from another race. where wherever u go u are either serviced by people from another race or u service them. so how can one have a discrimination against other races and yet keep a straight face when buying stuff from them or passing them by in the streets? virtually impossible. if you say u are racist then u would be beating up all those indians and malays on the streets whenever u see them. technically that would be quite impossible too.

racial tolerance you say. means that u accept their positions in the community and u accept their cultures and their food and all their little quirks. but bearing with it doesnt mean u like it right? in fact it would be more on the 'im bearing with it but i would rather kill that bastard" kind of thing?

then tell me whats so bad about them aside from the fact that they smell a little sometimes. essentially they are human beings, subjected to the same rights you and me have. they work hard to earn money just like you and me. we have common goals, aspirations and emotions.

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[richel] [3/20/2004 08:49:00 PM]

these next few months are going to be very packed. i got the last few performances of mixed blessings to go thru and i have got acting in lovers words coming up. i got selected for an audition for a film and am going to an audition for tcs's DADDY's GIRLS. all these while packing in my bike lessons and preparations for my studies and goddam it, my reservist in june!! aARRGG!! hate reservist...but got chance to spend five days to work out. not bad idea haha...

i have finally woken up. jiayi. fuck you. thats all i have to say to you. true, love i still have for you. but as in des's case, a relationship again is impossible. once again, fuck you.

my mum is now in border-line pms mood. cranky and sensitive. like a delicate time-bomb. u pull off the wrong stunt and utter the wrong word and there she will go, rite in ya face. dangerous living now at home. tension everywhere. i jus go about my act of keeping quiet and doing what i can, which is not much considering the little time i have at home, and praying that my bro goes to the army quickly. 12 more days to go. after he goes, tension will ease a whole lot and things SHOULD be much easier.

i want to write more. but somehow the more important parts of my life i am unable to put them down in words. i would like very much to but they wont come out. maybe not now. but..i can write briefly.

met joyce. she has changed. a lot. grown fatter. psychologically she has deteriorated a lot. has grown a bit mental from all the stress of life. i feel sad for her. ironic how much out fortunes has changed during the past few years. ironic.

im very very glad things between me and elaine ahs worked out for the better. we are very good friends now and im glad for things to say this way. i still do not agree with a lot of things in her lifestyle but i do not fret and worry over it anymore. its her life i have given her my thoughts on it, its hers to lead. but im grateful for her being there when i needed someone. thanks!!! !!!!

krystal. still needs time to sort out properly. we are over. but she really needs someone to lean on now. going through a particularly rough patch in her life. so i will do my best to her as a friend and she knows that all talks of a relationship between us are shelved, kiv for further notice. her life needs sorting out now and that is far more important than anythings else including bfs. she needs good friends now, not the burden of a relationship.

that should be about all for now. nothing much else i can bear to write.

on an ending note -- jiayi fuck you.

cheers

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[richel] [3/17/2004 10:28:00 AM]