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Thursday, February 26, 2004 This seems to be the month of surprises, of renewals, of chance encounters
people from my past seems to keep popping out into my life this month. People I don't wish to C. People I would have killed to C. People that didn't seem to matter but after a period of time in perspective, seems to have greater value then what they seemed to have before. jiayi. SMS out of the blue. Said she saw me at a mrt station and decided to SMS me. After so many months since we last contacted. Years since we were last together. We went out. In the movie I couldn't concentrate. I was just looking at her. She looked more frail now then before. Definitely slimmer. But she still retained that gentle demeanor. That angelic face that no one without prior knowledge to her past would have said belonged to a girl who did drugs and smoked and went to girls home. That same face that attracted me then and then disgusted me later, worked its magic on me again. I couldn't take my eyes off her and had to struggle to keep up without the story line of the movie, engaging as it was. i reached for her hand and she allowed me to hold it. i looked at her and moved forward to kiss her. she shrank away. i looked at her, hurt. " i have a boyfriend," she said. those words meant nothing to me. i knew i still meant something to her. i looked her in the eye and moved to kiss her again. this time she allowed me to peck her on the lips. after the movie, i poured out to her. i told her that i was still in love with her after so long and now that she's back in contact with me i dont want to lose her by my side again. lame mushy stuff i said. i havent said them in a long time to any girl. i quit all these mushy mushy stuff but they all seem to come back to me unwittingly when i looked at her. she has this inane ablility to seem to draw your inner self out. her seeming innocence makes you drop your guard when u are with her. though 19 she has a manner that seem to recall one of a 15 year old school girl. ... im rambling on and on. i actually have no mood to type this. tomorrow is my last show with act 3 for in my best interest. i have to sleep first will continue when inspired. Sunday, February 22, 2004 Ready For Love
I am ready for love Why are you hiding from me I’d quickly give my freedom To be held in your captivity I am ready for love All of the joy and the pain And all the time that it takes Just to stay in your good grace Lately I’ve been thinking Maybe you’re not ready for me Maybe you think I need to learn maturity They say watch what you ask for Cause you might receive But if you ask me tomorrow I’ll say the same thing I am ready for love Would you please lend me your ear? I promise I won’t complain I just need you to acknowledge I am here If you give me half a chance I‘ll prove this to you I will be patience, kind, faithful and true To a man who loves music A man who loves art Respect’s the spirit world And thinks with his heart I am ready for love If you’ll take me in your hands I will learn what you teach And do the best that I can I am ready for love Here with a offering of My voice My Eyes My soul My mind Tell me what is enough To prove I am ready for love I am ready… the flesh that connects with another. its like the last piece of puzzle that falls in place. unimginable peace and comfort. i lost you so many times over the past 4 years. i really dont want to lose u again. but you are still so fragile. heart so weak. ur conviction wavers readily. im afraid but theres nothing i can do.after so long. im in love. |
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