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Wednesday, October 15, 2003 updated random inspirations with a little something i wrote in cc. go check it out. nothing much else to write..still pretty confused and fucked up feeling..but will try to sort out things within myself asap.. Monday, October 13, 2003 haha..karin? this is for you
I TAKE MY PREVIOUS ENTRY BACK!!! SORRY LAH!!!!! hahaha Sunday, October 12, 2003 i knew it. i knew this would happen. when u asked me to go devils after u asked her i knew it already. i knew how u felt. my thoughts were confirmed when u turned around and asked me the same question. when u called me and asked me again and i said no and u said that means she aint going too i knew how angry u were. i was worried there and then but i didnt know u were be in such a bad state! ...god..i thought i explain things with you so many times!! u say im a flirt! flirts give empty promises of romance and forever love and stuff like dat. i dont. i tell people straight what i expect out of the relationship or semi one. i list out what i wan to them. i tell each other about wats going on between the other party and me. i dont want committment i dont want a relationship and when i do and i have chosen i will commit and i will tell the whole world that yes shes my gf! i thought we had a good talk that night! i thought we sorted out a couple of things. i thought i told u i dont want a relationship with u or either of them at this point of time. i told u i dont know whats going to happen in the future so i dont see a point to give up hope. and i also said i would be happy for you if along the way you found someone else who can make u happy or give u the love u will need. i tell this to them too! i never tie them down with things that u will be the only one for me the only one i will love forever more. i dont even use the word love for gods sake! i told them and i told u straight up im afraid of committment now and all i can offer now is my time and whatever attention i have. karin. i asked u if u were to get pissed everytime some one gets into the picture and u said yes and i know thats u so i couldnt say anything. but what are u so angry about now!! i have made things clear to you already about wat i want! u said i told others that you wanted me back. what did you tell me at double o? what did you tell me later on that night on the phone? u asked me whether i felt there was a chance on the two of us getting back together again. u said u wish very much for us to be together again. am i wrong then to say u wan me back? whoever i told that to i wanted to be fair to her. to let her know what the current circumstance is. u would wan to know this to if u were in her shoes. karin dont do this to yourself please!! i really dont wanna see you like this. i have told you before. if i feel you will be happier without being with me i wil let you go. being with me pains you so much already i dont want to see you being like this even if you are not with me! i knew it. i knew this would happen. when u asked me to go devils after u asked her i knew it already. i knew how u felt. my thoughts were confirmed when u turned around and asked me the same question. when u called me and asked me again and i said no and u said that means she aint going too i knew how angry u were. i was worried there and then but i didnt know u were be in such a bad state! ...god..i thought i explain things with you so many times!! u say im a flirt! flirts give empty promises of romance and forever love and stuff like dat. i dont. i tell people straight what i expect out of the relationship or semi one. i list out what i wan to them. i tell each other about wats going on between the other party and me. i dont want committment i dont want a relationship and when i do and i have chosen i will commit and i will tell the whole world that yes shes my gf! i thought we had a good talk that night! i thought we sorted out a couple of things. i thought i told u i dont want a relationship with u or either of them at this point of time. i told u i dont know whats going to happen in the future so i dont see a point to give up hope. and i also said i would be happy for you if along the way you found someone else who can make u happy or give u the love u will need. i tell this to them too! i never tie them down with things that u will be the only one for me the only one i will love forever more. i dont even use the word love for gods sake! i told them and i told u straight up im afraid of committment now and all i can offer now is my time and whatever attention i have. karin. i asked u if u were to get pissed everytime some one gets into the picture and u said yes and i know thats u so i couldnt say anything. but what are u so angry about now!! i have made things clear to you already about wat i want! u said i told others that you wanted me back. what did you tell me at double o? what did you tell me later on that night on the phone? u asked me whether i felt there was a chance on the two of us getting back together again. u said u wish very much for us to be together again. am i wrong then to say u wan me back? whoever i told that to i wanted to be fair to her. to let her know what the current circumstance is. u would wan to know this to if u were in her shoes. karin dont do this to yourself please!! i really dont wanna see you like this. i have told you before. if i feel you will be happier without being with me i wil let you go. being with me pains you so much already i dont want to see you being like this even if you are not with me! |
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