To sleep or not to sleep.

gotta go meet a client at 9 so gotta leave at 7. time now is 330 am. three and a half hours of sleep. Hmm...think i shall not sleep.

Havent blog in a long time. Why? Cause i have been busy like hell with work. Work = calling up leads and meeting clients to close deals. My hope is that i will receive 15 closed deals. But thats just an ideal situation. More feasibly we are looking at ten and that already will provide me with a tidy profit. Had been hosting a little too and am running a small buisness of providing girls for events. I really wish i can just finish my diploma fast as i really want to just enter the workforce now. Opportunity doesnt come by everytime and now that i am doing so well i am really thinking should i just work and skip the studying. BUt thinking long term and measuring my goals, i gotta finish this diploma if i want to think about advancing far and earning more.

Things are starting to pick up again even though the cash is still not flowing in. Caught in red tape. The cisco stuff, even when fully settled, will not bring in the cash very soon. Motorola is slowing down as new promoters are coming in. Hosting is still a clay ricebowl. Next month tentatively i got a stage play coming up so i'm looking forward to that. Next month my mum's gonna go overseas for two weeks two so i'm actually a bit worried about that. And i'm going to miss her.

In my life now things are starting to revert back to how it was before i met audrey. Meeting a lotta people, going out with some, nothing really serious though. Possibly cause i really dont wanna get serious at the moment. Tried it twice in succession and both times i got burned. So i'm gonna lay off being serious for a while, maybe do a bit of burning myself. haha. Nah, wish i could still do that like when i was 18. Just keep burning people for the kick of it. Now i seem to have developed a bit of a conscience, lost some of that edge and killer instinct. Should really just concentrate on my work and studies for the moment.

Was looking through some of the friendster photos. Time had really passed by so fast. So many people look different, sound different, feel different. Its like i dont even know them anymore. Feeling melancholic again about time. It heals but its cruel also. It doesnt stop to give u a lift when you are down or pat you on the back if you are doing well. It just marches ruthlessly on, pass any obstacles without stopping a beat. Maybe we are meant to evolve into this kinda people. Just going on with our everyday life in a merciless manner, ignoring everything else and just moving towards our goals.

Am going to do some work now.

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[richel] [5/19/2005 12:18:00 PM]