am using my laptop now. listen MY LAPTOP!! woo wee...!! to those oblivious to my joy, i'm so happy because my laptop was in repair for almost two weeks during which i had to fight constantly with my two brothers for the use of the desktop. The worst thing was that the desktop didn't have microsoft office!! So i couldn't do any power point presentations or even view and print them..thank god for my persistence! i kept appearing at the Mel centre until they got sick of seeing me already i suppose. i hugged my laptop so tight when i saw it again it was like...like...i dont know..nothing really compares to that feeling.

Kinda sad actually when the happiest thing you see is not human

went to pay my bills last wed then found out that ngee ann deducted another amount a few days later. now my bank account has 70 dollars left. 2000 dollars within a week. i went to check with the finance section of my school. prolly gonna take a long time to get the money back. ARGG!! will have to activae plans to get money soon!!

rejected two girls this new year already. one was an old flame who treated me horribly when i was still in the army. she broke up with me, then had two successive boyfriends. one knocked her up and she had to go for an abortion. now almost two years on, she comes back to me and says she wants to get back with me, saying she is willing to change everything just so she can be with me.

i told her no.

another just has a crush on me, i can tell. Guess i dont really want another relationship for the time being. Just want to spend time just going out and all. Financially i can't afford a girlfriend now anyway and homework's been piling up. Dont have a lot of spare time actually. Would like to spend more time at home instead of out also anyway. But its those moments when u need someone to hug and to cuddle that you envy all the people who have bfs or gfs. i just shut those memories out and trudge on. There have been dates and all but nothing even close to conclusive yet.

am going to cut my hair soon. sunny says want to make me look boyish. While working, there were two instances where someone refered to me as mam. my colleagues say i look a bit butch. boyish and butch and gayish. i think i'm at the peak of sexual ambiguity. im not metrosexual. more like multisexual now.

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[richel] [1/09/2005 09:41:00 PM]