got a gf now. her name is audrey. if want to see her pic i got it in my chillicrap account. i dont know how to upload the damm pic here otherwise i would have done it. anyway shes like 17 and that makes me very very nervous. shes not financially stable, very fun loving, likes clubbing and is now in the very rebellious stage of her life. right. do i need another elaine to come into my life even before her shadow has not realli left?
i dont know. shes beginning to look like shes turning into the nightmare i have been trying so hard to avoid. going out late and not telling me where she has gone to. feels that it is the boyfriend's responsibility to pay for stuff when we go out. i told her about my current financial situation and i ask her to be understanding and go dutch. her first reaction was that of shock before announcing that since this was the case we might as well dont go out.
bloody hell.
we are both very pissed with each other now. me for her being not being understanding and her for me bringing money into the picture. or issit for not having the money to bring into the picture? whatever.
she realli does mean something to me. that is more than i can say for a lot of my other so called 'gfs' in the past. i dont know why she just fits my mould. but i wish age wasnt such a big matter. shes 17, and acting every bit that way. man why do i always get myself into such a mess with young girls. im not out to trick the whole age group but i just have this strange knack of getting into relationships with women so much younger then me. i should tell myself to fall for someone older and more financially and mentally stable and independent next time. that is if there is a next time...
sigh...damm this thing called love.
