hmm..things are looking up a wee bit currently, maybe cause i suffered a terrible weekend and someone up there is trying to compensate me a little.

what happened during the weekend u may ask?

I went to church.

havent stepped into a church or attended service in 4 years plus. never liked it before and things hasnt really changed since then. had to attend cause of the current police case im involved in and me mum force me to go attend.

it was incredibly boring. but there were some stuff i wanna share.

it is incredible how much a group of people who believe single-mindedly on a purpose can affect situations. the service wouldnt have worked had not the people believed. the pastors were like psycho motivators. the music their toy, words their weapons. they strutted and fretted and were like orgasmic rabbits in suits, climaxing every single time the word 'god' was mentioned. And the amazing thing is that people followed these performers! rarely do you see such interactivity in any theatre performance, but yet here in churches every weekend we get so many people who respond to performers with their whole heart and soul! and they give generously in appreciation also! i looked at the huge hall, beautiful lighting and expensive, state of the art music and filming equipment and i wonder if this is doing god's work then he must be the most generous employer in the world. or wherever he lives in. singapore introduced watch-then-pay-what-you-want theatre early last year. proceeds rarely cover costs. maybe they should hold a service instead. theatre practicioners would be able to speak better english though i think.
i would still have to go to service this weekend. to go there and try 'enjoy' the glory of some non existant psycho created being, sing some songs to celebrate 'his' love for me and try and ejaculate everytime the word 'god' is muttered. i will still look around and wonder to myself that these people here should celebrate their own power instead. the power of the mind will always be stronger and more powerful than any force available on earth...or wherever He lives in. i read a story before about this club who kills people on demand. and they do it without having to physically even near the person. they are just very strong willed people and they gather in a room after an assignment is received and they sit down and will the person to death. if the people in service can all gather together to pray that someone's ailment which has been affecting the person for the first half of their life (hmm..question here. why didnt they try this any sooner?), why couldnt they just gather together and will the pastors to just SHUT UP?

things will not always be looking up i know. but to fate i have to say to you -- try and bring me down. and you better succeed. otherwise your gonna have hell to pay.

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[richel] [9/27/2004 05:48:00 PM]