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Saturday, May 10, 2003 today is the first time im realli disappointed in u
i realli dun understand what i did to piss u off! all i was doing was my best to help my drunk friend! true i may not have been very helpful at all and the situation was very chaotic but what was i suppose to do??!!! at least i tried my best!! i didnt even mind that my whole self smelled of his vomit afterwards! true i knew u told me a few times u had to go but u are my gf! and u left me there to deal with the problem! i was expecting support till the very end. yes i know u were there for most of the ordeal but why did u have to scram off even b4 the prob was solved? and why were u irritated at me 4? you gave me a look that somewhat told me that i was at fault! what did i do wrong? why the fuck are u angry with me? you left me alone and took off. i expected u to stay with me at least till everything was settled but no...u didnt the day was perfect till that happened. why! why! WHY! Wednesday, May 07, 2003 another cutie..though disappointingly she didnt look like vivian hsu.. AT this point i shoudl say that although many may consider my tastes to be less than desirable at times i mus strongly assert that them two gals were realli realli cute.!! (im so sorry darling...its jus appreciation of beauty ya know...and no i didnt talk to them much less ask for their num thereby my loyalty to u is still intact ok.) anyway when it was finally my turn to do my piece i fumbled and was such a bunch of nerves that i virtually bomb it. i will not go into details about what i was suppose to do as it realli is too embarrasing..jus that it entails a bit of jumping on mattresses and shaking my booty..
needless to say i wasnt called back today. oh well...better luck next time...i hope.. ANYWAY..i took the mrt to city hall and then from there i took a bus to river valley where i was told by the coordinator was the nearest main street to that ulu place. oH kay... anyway i tried calling her on the bus but she nev pick up the bloody phone...kaoz...i got down at liang court and got irrevocably lost. gave up and took a cab...turned out the place was damm far away from liang court,..more at the great world city that area...when the driver dropped me off the first person i saw was corrinne adreinne of heartlanders fame. ermm...after seeing her in real life and her in fhm the conclusion was....she should have not appeared in fronta me and spoil wat little good images i have had of her appearance...anyway i went in and (ermm darling i dont think you should read the following) i saw one of the cutest gals!! wah..damm look like vivian hsu!! anyway i jus took the audition form and filled it in..
I SPENT THREE BLOODY HOURS iNSIDE THE DAMM HOUSE!!!! argg...but during which time i saw (darling i think u should skip this part too) ..... continue later.. Tuesday, May 06, 2003 ermm...comments system is down im told so guess u all would have to comments on the tag board instead for the moment...
many people asked me who i was dissing (esp a certain jason leong) and i was quite hard pressed to comment about what i wrote (honours to jason again). i just wanna say that whatever i left out i leave it out for a reason. my anger is mine and so are my writings. my blogspot is my online diary, it aint a dissing corner or a gossip webpage. theres no point for me to put names inside for the whole world to see and know. during the tag board incident when i wrote about what everyone was criticising and ranting about me i also felt no need to put names. people who are involved would know themselves how i feel and that to me is enough already. one dont go around telling the whole world that they just have a quarrel with their girlfriends or mothers or brothers do they. somethings are private and and only the people involved in the matter should have knowledge about the ongoings. theres no need to slam one another publicly, and there never will be a need. my blogspot is a site where i can rant and rave about the things that are happening to me and in my life. it is NOT a newspaper or the radio or the gossip pages. was called up for a audition yesterday afternoon. quite shocked actually...out of the blue. it was for a coke commercial.didnt want to go actually as i was not at all prepared for it! but in the end i still went as i thought it would be wortha try. not everyday u get ASKED to audition for something, not less a coke commercial. 42 jln mutiara. fuck thats as obscure to me as timbuktoo wherever or whatever that place is. anyway .... shit i gtg..closing time.will be back later... Monday, May 05, 2003 WHY U WANNA TREAT ME LIKE THIS?
U PIECE OF SHIT! U BAD EXUCUSE FOR HUMANITY! i have done so much for u! as a friend as a mate as a human being y u play me like this! u moron. for such a small thing u make my life miserable! u treat my dignity with contempt, insulting my pride, took me for a bloody fool! and to think i treated u as a friend! a confidante! someone whom i could count on! u are pathetic! someone who knows only how to bully how to take advantage of people! everything i have ever done 4 u has been in vain. my friendship for u has gone done the drain. u disappoint me. terribly. i trusted u. i treated u as my friend. u. u treated me like an animal. fuck u. |
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